RazoR-X-HalO

new and approved

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 00:23:28 GMT

*IM WORKING ON A NEW ART PROJECT!*

i need help with it though.... i need everyone to send me pics of yourselves... i need alot of them to. if you want to know why ask and i will explain. but i really need these pics. you can send them to my email {razorxhalo@aol.com or razorhalox@yahoo.com} or you can ask either me or melanie (kandikane) for my photobucket name and password and you can post them on there. but i really need these pics so please help. and if you have pics of randoms cool things you can send those too....will be appreciated. thankies ^-^!!

This is how i feel... in perfection

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 22:42:33 GMT

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

new pictures

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 19:41:00 GMT

This is what i have done to my hair so far...

goodbye...

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 01:39:25 GMT

This will be my last entry in this journal for a while... but i do have my new journal up and going... i added most of you to my friends so yes, add me back ! (most appreciated)... but if i forgot to add you, just leave me a comment on this and i will add you once i check it. okay thankies ^-^...

love always
katt <333

to tiffany

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 22:30:02 GMT

Tiffany: what the fuck have you been thinking lately? just becuase we didnt have fucking time to do pictures you fucking freak the hell out. then blame it because your on acid? riiighhht!! your a fucking idiote, im not that stupid. then you post a comment about me doing to many drugs when i stated that i quit them for good... your soooo smart babe. do me a favor and shut the fuck up and deal with it alright? thank you bye

Christmas...tonight!

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 17:48:25 GMT

Well Zack had an okay flight i guess. some bitch kept complaining about his piercings and makeup. (but he was quite happy that he got the window *rolls eyes*) haha. Im actually extremely happy that he is here. we had fun last night. We made each other dinner and watched movies. he even helped my mom and dad make rumballs. haha. DORK! lol. but yeah, everything is good.

DANIELLE, COME SAVE ME!! I DONT WANT TO BE WITHOUT YOU FOR CHRISTMAS...IM GOING TO CRY THE WHOLE TIME. *cries* i miss you to much for this. i love you brain.

But yeah, today is going to be a very busy day for me. and yes i have my phone turned off. Me and zack have to go out at like 12 tonight with my sister jess to go get haven's presents from nicoles house. so this christmas is going to be : me, zack, my sisters jess & mimi, my parents, nicole & haven... not much for a usual christmas. but its good. this will be havens 2nd christmas but her 1st christmas where she will be able to open her presents herself. hehe. this is going to be exciting!

IVE HAD ANGEL FOR EXACTLY ONE YEAR TODAY!!! I LOVE MY PUPPY!! ^_^.

WEll zack just got out of the shower so im going to go get in so we can get ready. we are going out to lunch with my sisters. *giggles*

love always
katt <333

MERRY CHRISTMAS: melanie, joe, danielle, courtney, chey chey, joel, mykl, proto, kyo, chris, icey, erika, zack, ashley, and everyone else that i forgot. i didnt mean to but yeah, i woke up like 15 minutes ago. haha. <333333

fuck them in the eyeball

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 17:33:10 GMT

Well i took about 4 sleeping pills yesterday so i slept from 2-7 then i woke up and went back to sleep from 12-12... its fucking awesome... ive never slept so much. now i will have energy to do stuff. haha.

Well its 12:30 right now and Zack will be here around 6 X_x... im soo fucking excited. lol. me and him are going out to dinner tonight with my parents. so yes... i wont be online and my phone will be turned off ALL WEEKEND LONG. so if you need me... your going to have to figure out a way to get my house number or just email me so i will check that whenever i decide to get back online for a bit.

okay im sorry for being so weird lately. but the christmas thing is really weird for me right now. since the fact that this will be the first(or second) christmas that i wont be spending it with my best friend danielle *pouties* and my first christmas that i wont be seeing all of my family. and i mean...im happy spending it with my parents,my sisters, nicole & haven, and zack but im use to seeing EVERYONE else. so yeah.

ive been also really busy lately trying to get things ready and stuff for christmas. ive been really busy trying to figure out how the hell im going to have time to spend with my friends in NC this summer since i will be going to spain and new york and yada yada... but i will make time for them no doubt.

Well im going to go help my sister make brownies... shes never made them before and she really needs the help. lol. boobyez

love always
katt <333

Your burning me

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 01:06:25 GMT

Well to make a very long story short...i spent all day yesterday with erika and we spent the night at the spot. so yeah. bleh.

I have decided to delete this journal and make another one. well im not sure about deleting this one but i am making another one. i dont like this one anymore, to many people know it and yeah. and yes, only VERY FEW people will be able to read it and it will be friends only. so yeah, to bad for the rest of you. i guess.

Tomorrow is going to be a very slow day. Zack (squish) is coming here and spending x-mas with me. im excited about that. so yeah, i wont be online all weekend and my phone will probaly be turned off. i will probaly have my phone turned off all next week. i dont know.

im going threw one of my stages again. i dont want to be around anyone anymore. im not happy with the people around me. but yeah, i guess i will get over it when school starts up again >_< bleh.

I stopped doing DXM for good. im cleaning up with my little drug habbits. which im happy with myself for it. i guess its a good thing huh? and no im not doing this for anyone else but me thank you very much.

i miss my kit!! i havent seen her in forever and i was going through all the stuff that im starting our scrapbook with. i was almost (ALMOST) crying. bleh... its hard having you best friend a milling miles away and barely get to talk to her. but this summer im going there for sure.

OH YEAH...my parents are going to ireland for there anniversary this summer. so yeah, this is going to be fun. but it doesnt matter, i wont be home anyways. and yeah, i just want to tell every, this summer my cell phone is going byebye all summer long, but i will have numbers where you can reach me at (except when im in spain) lol.

well im going to go back to sleep because i havent really slept in the past couple days. boobyez

love always
katt <333

EAting brains and walking in the mall with 'houstin, we have a problem'

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 01:21:38 GMT

Okay yesterday my friend brent came over during the day because i havent seen him in FOREVER and the last time i remember seeing him was when we were drunk in his front yard throwing worms at each other. Well he came over to my house for like an hour and then we went to melanies (kandikane) and i got ready. then chelsea came over, got ready,(trying to make this short) we left, got food, and got to tremont early EARLY. but yeah.

The show was awesome. i got to see alot of people i havent seen in a LONG time. Well thank you muchies joe for taking me and mel home, it was fun. ^_^... yeah it was awesome. but yeah...anyways (you saw the last post of pics...haha)

Well today me,melanie and houstin went to concord mills to kill time and shit and then we came home. then tiffany came over....mmmkay....and yeah. ryan and nick might come over later to visit. so yeah.

This x-mas...is going to be awesome. i get many suprises and haha. yayonaise!! *happy happy joy joy face* well melanie is going to keep entertaining me tonight with her dancing bear and brain eating tricks(shhh dont tell her i said that...she might do it!)... ^_~...

love always
katt(o) <333

the morning after the end of the world....

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 17:52:40 GMT

Well last night was the show of course... well here are some pics of me and melanie this morning... dont be scared. lol

okay i hope you enjoy!! *waves at joe!*

love always
katt (and melanie)<333

silent

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 15:59:58 GMT

THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998

Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.

~ Shel Silverstein

Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.

What will you do to end the silence?

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stolen from proto ^_^

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 15:23:28 GMT

And the water ran red... ^-^

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 21:14:13 GMT

Well last night was NOT a good night. I went over to houstons house and rode fourwheelers for a while then we went and picked up erika and seth to go up to concord mills for awhile. Seth ended up just walking away and leaving us to spend like an hour trying to find him. (fucker) i was soo pissed off. but i got to see my friend ryan that worked up at no fear. but my boys at hot topic werent working last night which made me sad. but whatever. i was pissed. so i came home and passed out on my bed...in my platforms and all. lol.

Well this morning i got up at 9:30 and rushed and got in the shower. well tiffany came over and i got ready. then we decided to be dumbshits and go to carolina place mall. We ended up stealing over $150 worth of underwear, shirts and skirts. lol. We are soo stupid. haha. I did get a really cute black red corset that im going to wear to the show tomorrow. speaking of...

TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! (december 19th)
@tremont music hall...
ASTRID HAVEN
all ages/$8
BE THERE FUCKERS!!!!!!!! ^_~

anyways...haha...well after the mall Me and tiffany went to taco bell and ate lunch then we went to the gas station so i could drive. lol... she loves me, she lets me drive her car. i actually did very well. i love my tiffany though.

Well im going to go cause i gotta figure out rides and shit for tomorrow. plus, anjel wants to hang out and go to show with me and stuff and im staying at ryans house tomorrow after the show so yeah. im going to go. boobyez!!

{hope to see all at the show...dress cute!}

love always
katt <333

the good times are killing me

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 20:53:35 GMT

okay okay okay... well i got up this morning at 8:30... ACTUALLY made me breakfast and ate all of it. then i got in the shower and got dressed and stuff. i talked to joel and some peoples this morning on the puter then i took some pics. lol this is my morning before erika came to pick me up for school... lol

lol okay. Well i have no idea what im doing this weekend. i know im staying sunday night with ryan and nick. i will probaly ride up to tremont with courtney if not with erika. but im not sure. >_< gotta figure that stuff out. lol. okay well im going to go and do something. im not sure what but im going to do something. bye!!

love always
katt <333

stolen from chey <3

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 20:44:45 GMT

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YAYNAY!!! lmao

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 01:00:35 GMT

Well today was my business and biology exams. I think i did very well on them which is awesome. today went by really fast.

Well After school me and amanda went up to the 'tribe of more' house and picked up her boyfriend rob and austin. then we went to austins house and chilled there for a while. (i got ciggs... yay! ^-^) but then amanda took me and home and stuff. (i was really high) haha. and i ate then i went and layed down. and slept.

I dont have to go into school tomorrow until fucking 11:05. hell yeah!! i get to sleep my happy ass in. Erika is driving me to school tomorrow and probaly driving me home.

I have no idea what the hell im doing this week but i do know that i need to go up and see ryan, nick, and richard. i was suppose to be staying with them after the show but i doubt thats going to happen. i got to talks to a couple people so i can see where im going after the show...im sure in hell im not coming home the night of the show, or probaly the day after. lol. i never do.

well im going to end this. ryan just called....boobyez!

love always
katt <333

fucking loser ^_~

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 01:42:37 GMT

Well today was alright. i got to talk to Joelyo today during business class. i was on the computer and he was awake so we were chatting a bit about picking each others noses and watching people have sex on school desks. lmao... random stuffies.

After school me and erika went to her house and picked up her money then we went to walmart. she had to get seths film and she got him a pocket watch for christmas. then we went out to eat (which was really good) then we went up to the carolina place mall and went shopping. i bought a cute pink corderoy skirt, a black long sleeve shirt, and a blue t-shirt that says "look at those twins? time to seperate" lol yes, very random but i love it and it was on $3... ^-^...yayonaise. Erika got her mom some perfume stuff and she bought herself some shirts. It was lots of fun.

Tomorrow and friday are the exams. i get out of school at like 1:30 both days. and i dont have to go into school on friday until like 11 so yay!! i get more sleep. hehe...i think i just might spend the night at erika's on thursday night and just ride with her to school on friday. that sounds cool. I still need to figure out what im doing this weekend. I need to go see my cuddle buddy joelyo. we havent been able to hang out in a while. soo hmmm....lol.

well im going to go and talk to my cousin lisa.... OH YEAH!! im doing something very drastic this winter break. only erika knows and im only telling very FEW people about it. so yeah... you will just have to see when january rolls around or something. ^_~...

love always
katt <333

simple kind of life...

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 11:44:45 GMT

Well yesterday was the theatre arts awards. I got best backstage help. lol. Mark (the jew) was there. he played a couple songs that he wrote (the zombie song and stalker) they were really good. i love mark. he is leaving this thursday to go see his dad so we wont be able to hang out for a while.

Well my cousin lisa is coming to stay with us for a couple days. i dont know why but she is. >_< i really dont like her. i dont want her here. but whatever. my mom is letting her so whatever my mom wants or does it goes. rawr.

I have exams thrusday and friday so that means i will be getting out of school at like 1:20-1:30. THANK GOD! lol. and friday i dont have an exam that morning so i will be able to sleep in and only go to school for like 2 hours. ^_^...that makes me happy. then its christmas break. YAYONAISE!!!!!!

i think my eskimo(tommy...he use to live in alaska lol) is coming up soon. that makes me happy. he now lives in florida. He wanted to come up for the astrid haven show but he doesnt have the money right now. he has been working ALOT. i think he has two jobs now. i unno. i will have to talk to him. lol. i havent talked to him in a couple days.

IM EXCITED!! the show is this sunday. ^-^...im bringing a camera and getting LOTS of pics to post on my board in my room. i was going to do that for the SOT but there wasnt alot of people i knew so im going to do it for this show. hehe. but yeah. I dont know what im doing after the show but i got to figure that out. Im need to figure out who im riding with because i dont think i want to ride with chelsea (not you mom ^_~) anymore. im not sure.

love always
katt <333

Wow... difference... >_

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:53:05 GMT

okay here are some... semi old pics of me... way different... lol... kinda scary...

i have this thing about posting pictures... its weird...bleh

love always
katto!

just another day...

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 11:52:20 GMT

http://www.astridhaven.com/teotwflyer.jpg
^ click it fuckers ^_~!!!

Well this week is going to be fun. Today is the theatre arts awards. im suppose to wear a prom dress but psh! im not wearing my nice ass dress to that school! it would surely get ruined and i would be pissed. lol. so they are going to have to deal with big pants and a black shirt. lol.

Well i got to talk to my brain yesterday ^-^...that made me very happy. i also got to talk to my primo (sorta lol) but i miss them alot and i cant wait to see them this summer. i hope time hurries up. hehe.

I also got to talk to my zack...he is doing better i guess. but he is still not moving here. BUT!! he will be here next weekend for two days to help his mom move here. bleh, i will get to chill with him then i guess.

well i gotta go finish some stuff then get out of this house. boobyez .

love always
katt </333

and yet again...i feel this way

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 02:36:47 GMT

*sighs* how come, in the end, i always feel this way... ALWAYS... i guess i never will be happy, about anything.

i want to d{i}e.

what a wonderful time... <3

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 01:31:28 GMT

okay this was my weekend ^_^ :

Friday: houstin came over for a while and we went to walk mart to pick me up some candy then he drove me up to media play to go meet up with ryan, nick, and richard. then i went over to their house and just was hanging out and got no sleep at all. it was fun. pool junkies ^_~.

Saturday: Everyone went to work so i layed on the couch all day by myself and watched tv.i actually got like one hour of sleep but ryan called and woke me up when he was on his break. it was cool though. thats the only sleep i got all weekend though. lol. When nick and richard got home, We all went down to 'the room' to go see Fefe...there was a concert going on there so yeah, it was fun. then Richard, Chris and kim went and picked ryan up from work and then me,ryan, chris and kim went back to the house and they drank and we watched tv all night. It was fun.

Sunday: Everyone eventually got up at like 1:30 and ate and played a little pool. then nick and brady went to this christmas church play thing so me,ryan, and richard all sat around and watched tv and i ate a peanut butter sandwhich. lol. Then nick got home and richard and ryan took me home. i DID NOT want to go home. lol. i liked hanging out with them all weekend. i was the only girl though that stayed the night. but it was cool. i got the couch and the chair lounge. haha. ^-^.

Now: im sitting here talking to melanie about to pass the fuck out. im waiting for ryan to call me. but i think he is getting high right now so yeah. lol. But im going to end this. boobyez!

love always
katt <333

I have no more H[e]art

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 02:12:17 GMT

Well Alek is stalking me now. he thinks i like josh but i dont. josh is just my really good friend. lol but alek keeps following me around school and stuff...FUCKER LEAVE ME ALONE.

Well i talked to Zack today. He isnt moving here anymore. *sighs* i figured as much. bleh...

Next weekend is the end of the world. (i wish it was real though) hmmm...blood? Astrid haven? tremont? i'll be there for sure.

Im slowly slipping back into my depression. yupp. and i hate it. *sighs* but anyways.... i love my bear and he loves me back {see pic below}

love always
katt <333

Boredum pics i took this morning before school....BLEH

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 00:09:41 GMT

Come on...you know you want to D{i}E

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 11:11:06 GMT

Well i broke up with alek. I wasnt looking to get attached and he was. we had been dating like 3 or 4 days and he brought up being in love with me. thats when i knew i had to end it right away. Im looking for something serious....but im not looking to fall in love right away. geezus. lol.

oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISTER HORROR HIMSELF!! *whacks you with a stick* HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD BIRTHDAY CROLL! ^_~.

Well this week has been weird. For some weird ass reason i was REALLY happy yesterday. i have no idea why, but i was happy. i guess thats a good thing huh?...

Well thats all the news today. lol. Im going to blow this popsicle stand *giggles* BYE!

love always
katt <333

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